| Thursday, October 11th, 2001 |
| 12:23 pm |
YO
well i won't be using this account anymore b/c i don't want certain ppl knowing about my life i would tell u my new account name but um the ppl i don't want knowing can still read this. |
| Wednesday, October 3rd, 2001 |
| 10:11 pm |
well
today nothing really happened woke up got ready for school then actually went to school. well in foods today we had pancakes ^.^ yummy! im not going to say the rest of my periods b/c they are all boring. well after school i went home sat around. then my mom took me out to get a halloween costume since i realized noone would really know who tifa lockheart is. well my halloween costume is fucking hot.(ima sorceress) mmmm it shows clevage lol well i don't think jon will mind lol .....i hope he comes saturday!!! im so lonely and depressed i just don't show it around my friends b/c i don't want them to worry so much about me. well matt schem is an asshole(my ex) he fucking slammed me against a window meanwhile the ledge is digging into my back....then he pushed me to the ground. i tried kicking him in the nuts but i realized he had none. then he was trying to pour soda on me....which he fucking got on my hoodie infact my fav hoodie and im going to kill him! he fucking twisted my arm now i have marks on my arm he's suck and asshole i hate him so much!!!!!! and I LOVE JON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood:  lonely |
| Monday, October 1st, 2001 |
| 8:26 pm |
sigh
i don't think jon is coming this saturday! :( |
| 8:21 pm |
meant twards someone.....
pourquoi est-ce que je tracasse avec ceci? Je pense son heure pour moi de laisser....for bon. -=if u want u can translate that its in french=- |
| 3:04 pm |
hmm lets see
i woke up at 6:00 um sat around then went to school. then came home turned on the stereo(oh boy!)then went looking for baby pics of me. then i went online and talked to jon found out that he's really sick and that he stayed home from school. i hope he feels better! well i told all my friends that i might be getting back with jon if he does come this weekend and asks me out. they said i was nuts. but i don't care b/c they are nuts to so its all good. i felt really prepy today b/c i wore a turtle neck sweater the only reason why i wear it is b/c its cumfy and warm and my favortie color red! hmmm wat else oh yeah the fair starts thursday!!! yay!! this is gonna be so much fun..lol i sound like a little kid.i really really hope jon comes out this weekend!!! and i hope he feels better!!! i thought i was gonna be Tifa Lockheart for halloween but see I need a Guy to be Cloud Strife or else tifa isn't tifa w/o him!! grr...lol i don't know im bitching! Current Mood:  bitchy |
| Sunday, September 30th, 2001 |
| 11:25 pm |
jon
jon got really messed up yesterday night. he told me to call him so of course i did. he was one big mess. he said he felt like he was gonna die. i didn't know what to say except comfort him through the phone. i told him not to go to sleep cuz if he did he wouldn't wake up. so he listned to me and stayed up all night playing videos games. (isn't he so cute!?) well i kinda asked him back out he poured his heart out to me, i do love him i really do i jus didn't realize it before. he said he wanted to ask me out again but in person. the fair is this weekend he said he'd come out then. if he does this time we'll have something to do....go to the fair. which should be fun. i had a good time at the fair last year. i know i can't stand this i need to be with him i love him i don't care what anyone has to say i love jon sills and i do anything to make it up to him! Current Mood:  determined |
| Saturday, September 29th, 2001 |
| 1:11 am |
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| 12:44 am |
omg
holy shit i've known this one go for like a lot of years and i haven't talked to him in the longest time. well i finally talked to him after all these years that was cool. and then i talked to dylan who i have still this major crush on and i can't wait til he visits from georgia since he hates it there! well ill talk to you all later Current Mood:  cheerful |
| Friday, September 28th, 2001 |
| 11:50 pm |
sigh
im not sure how i feel, i almost cried today because he heard a song that jon sung. jon's parents told me he's missing and can't find him. im not sure if i can wait for nick to break up with his gf. when i saw brian bartholomew i brightened up i still have feelings for him. but im afraid if i asked him out he'd say no. sigh my life is to confusing i have feelings for jon still i love him thats the problem but he hurt me im so confused and then i think nick is lieing to me when he says that i have a chance with him. and then when i see brian i just get all happy inside. my life sux so bad its way to fucking confusing.....well today i went on coleen's bus after school, then went to town then viki's then dale's and now im home where i don't want to be. nick is grounded til sunday meaning he can hang out sunday but he probably won't want to hang out with me because im probably getting annoying to him. ok well jon's parents jus told me he called so he's ok thank god! Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Thursday, September 27th, 2001 |
| 11:04 pm |
right alex
gaming09: im gonna be a female stripper when i grow up XStrickenAngelX: wow gaming09: yea XStrickenAngelX: thats interesting i guess XStrickenAngelX: lil scarey but ok gaming09: yea' XStrickenAngelX: thats interesting hearing it from a guy |
| 10:42 pm |
yup
well yesterday i hung out with NICK!!, zach, coleen, and dale. that was fun! nick held my hand the whole entire time and gave me lots of hugs. i love him so much! i made him blush.....hehe i succeded in life. well ill see him in school tomorrow which is cool. im wearing his hoodie right now! its so comfy! ^.^* well im gonna go dream about nick once again! c ya! Current Mood:  bouncy |
| Tuesday, September 25th, 2001 |
| 11:53 pm |
right
lala im bored so im gonna update this. umm lets see....i drew a really good pic of an angel in anime. it looks hot. ummm i made a poem book, since i write my own stuff the only person who's ever really read my poems is jon. well tomorrow i go to baby sit my lil bro for awhile. then supposidly im going to hang out with NICK,coleen,zach, and dale. well that should be fun. im gonna try and dye my hair purple this weekend when i get the chance to.i feel like drawing more hehe! c ya im off to my drawings! Current Mood:  artistic |
| 3:01 pm |
not sure
i don't know how i feel about jon anymore. he's making me feel like shit. i mean of course i still love him but i can't accept wat he did. i love him so much and i can't stand it the only reason why i won't go back with him is because of wat he told me. his away message is most likely twards me IT SAYS: I know I'll miss her later Wish I could bend my love to hate her Wish I could be her creator To twist her arms now She stares up at the stars when The stars fell from her hair then I bent down to collect them And then she was gone Oh, I sleep just to dream her I beg the night just to see her That my only love should be her Just to lie in her arms Oh, I came there to find out Find out she'd made up her mind, oh My arms are all tied up To me she was blind This space between us Where wingless dreams fall earless Will you not bear me witness With your back to me now It seemed so unnerving Still somehow deserving That she could hold my heart so tightly And still not see me here, oh why is he doing this why did this all of a sudden come out of no where i don't understand. my feelings are so mixed upright now i don't know what to do. well maybe i jus need a bf who i can actually see everyday. and who will actually call me/ call back. Current Mood:  confused |
| 12:15 am |
alex
gaming09: put in making underware show for alex on camera to make $$ XStrickenAngelX: lol if u want me too gaming09: tru st0ry oh you know it! |
| 12:02 am |
well ok
today i broke up with jon....he told me something that i couldn't accept nor ignore. im not going to say what it was cuz its to disturbing. well so im single AGAIN. im not going to go out with brian harris because well i don't want to ruin the friendship that i have with him. i have my mind still set on nick. well today i went to school english was the best period because we went to the library and nick is in my class and im like the only person he will talk to. well he kept wanting me to stand or sit next to me. he said i looked lonely so he's come over by me. omg that made my day he's so adorable. i hope he gets adjusted soon. well ill write more tomorrow c ya! Current Mood: pissed off |
| Monday, September 24th, 2001 |
| 12:41 am |
....guess who's this for......
-=Borders=- i see you at the book store. i promise my self not to get emotional i haven't been the same girl since I saw you coming in. where are you from? like the angel of night. and in my lonely eyes all i can see is you. you walk over with style. sit yourself down next to me. ..i wanna be with you.. ..i wanna be with you.. -melissa gace 9-24-01 i love you!! 9-3-01/9-19-01 |
| 12:24 am |
there....
(doesn't want sn up): i dont like ur journal XStrickenAngelX: lol why? (doesn't want sn up): im not in it well hello charles this is for you! now ur in it so u can't complain anymore c ya around! -Melissa |
| 12:12 am |
yup
well today i hung out with coleen and dale, then dale left and me and coleen went to her house. she burned a cd for me with 20 songs. thank you col! well im really sad i need to see jon. its so depressing! i imed him and his away msg was.... I call you up You pick up You call my bluff On the card to love You hold too close Your hands to your chest I can read your eyes But I confess It's lonely far from you, oh Even when you're right by me It's only why I wait for you To take my hand Why do I beg like a child for your candy? Why do I come after you like I do, I love you? Wherever you are I swear You be my angel You ((i think its meant towards me!)) if it is im going to cry! i love him so much!!!!!!!! Current Mood: gloomy |
| Saturday, September 22nd, 2001 |
| 11:18 pm |
k
yeah well today i kinda jus chilled out. i hung out with coleen, dale, and his friend conor. we didn't do much. i miss jon i wish i could talk to him but he's upstate visiting his brother which sux for me anyway. um i worked on my site today if that counts as doing something lol. well im gonna go im bored i don't want to be here which is my own house. :( o well ill c ya lata Current Mood: bored |
| 12:49 am |
yeah um ok
well hmmm um yeah....well coleen's parents went to the city for a good part of the day. rob aka "col's lover" came over and he brought beer with him lol. then we went to town to meet up with his friend tom which whom i know through my brother. he was really pissing me off but we're not going to talk about it. i found out that i have a problem with my liver (o yay wat fun!) my liver is getting rid of proteins which it shouldn't do. i guess they'll put me on medication i have no clue. well today was interesting i guess. i got to see rob and tom high that was funny. but at the end of it all it sucked. i was crying because i missed jon and i still do i always do. well i hope i get to see him soon. Current Mood: sad |
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